engagements and weddings crisis.... well for me...

lately, a lot of my friends or most people I know are getting engaged and later on of course, married...
so this leads me to say... why am I not? hahaha... well i haven't met the one or he hasn't met me...
further, that's not really  why i was inspired to write this post..

ever since i was a teen, i have dreamt of my prince charming... then later on of how my wedding would be...

i even joked around everything's prepared already, it's only the groom who is missing...

so just let me give you a picture of what i'd like my wedding to be...
since i love color, my theme/motif would be carnivale or masquerade..
i'd love it if the colors would mostly be pink, blue, green, purple and probably yellow with silver as accent? =)

yes, it's me again... on my life now!

As time flies, i find myself getting lazier and lazier.... i can't even update this blog properly.. it has almost been a year since i was trying to write something... anything under the sun... something someone out there might be interested to read.... but there, i've been to lazy getting my life back... i'm so used to starting something yet having to perseverance to finish it...

Unfortunately, that heart break has claimed my life... reflecting and stressing what could have been done and what it would have been now.. so now i'm at a lost... like a soul in purgatory, wondering where my next destination.. well apparently, not having a destination...

i just have to admit I'M DEPRESSED....

there are temporary things that can't fix this... but i have found anything permanent... :(